I am so excited for the last day of school to end this Friday. I have been struggling with finding the balance between motherhood and work as an administrator. Going from teacher to school administrator has been a challenge. Even though my marital status is SINGLE, I am blessed to have a great co-parenting situation with his father (yes, the man still gets on my nerves, but father-wise he is AWESOME!).
Even though I am blessed to have such a supportive family, I still feel guilty because I want to be the one to give him his bath, feed him dinner, or pick him up from school. Sometimes I feel that I am the “Weekend Mom” because most times we spend quality time together is on the weekends, while during the week, I just want to just ignore my responsibilities from work just to hang out with him.
Two weeks ago, I took the day off and this threw Ashton for a loop. His father or my father would normally take Ashton to daycare. Half way to the daycare, Ashton kept saying in the car “I don’t want to go to school today” multiple times, when he saw the school he flipped out. He walked in crying and the staff said they never seen him cry because he is always happy to come to school. His teacher asked him “Ashton, what is wrong with you?” Ashton’s response “I want to stay with mommy.” This broke my heart. After my appointments and work out at the gym, I picked him up from daycare early, around 1pm. He loved that!
Prior to this event, I am getting better with finding the balance between Ashton and work but sometimes I do find one outweighing the other. With summer break around the corner and, yes, I do work the summer, I look forward to the summer because my hours are more flexible than when school is in session.
Overall, finding the balance being Motherhood and Work is challenging. All you can do is your best to spend as much time with your little as possible. Donna Ball’s saying sums it up for me “Motherhood is a choice you make everyday, to put someone else’s happiness and well-being ahead of your own, to teach the hard lessons, to do the right thing even when you’re not sure what the right thing is…and to forgive yourself, over and over again, for doing everything wrong.” —Donna Ball
Have a wonderful Wednesday!
Amber and Ashton